I’m not sure why I woke up and felt light hearted, especially after seeing that it snowed, and it looked like the dead of winter. It’s April 17th in Chicago and the 34th day of my isolation from the coronavirus. Still, instead of lounging around in my warm bed at 5:57 a.m. I got up right away. As usual I wrote my to do list for the day only allowing ten items to fill the page. I wondered what I would do if and when I went back to work. Would I be stressed out at the lack of time? I wondered. It felt strange to even have this thought, but I guess a small part of me will miss the abundance of time when the world goes back to normal. Anyway, I decided to start the day by doing and crossing off my two favorite things on the list which is meditation and yoga. I felt great afterwards, and after I showered and had lunch I was ready to go outside to get groceries, stop by the drug store, and pick up my Amazon packages and mail.
As my hands were way too full when I came out of the Whole Foods, I saw a homeless guy. I felt guilty as I walked away and justified to myself that I didn’t have any cash (which I didn’t). When I was entering Walgreens I saw two homeless men talking to each other, and since the first homeless guy I passed stirred something in me I decided to get some cash to be prepared for the next time I could give. Upon leaving and still seeing at least one homeless man sitting by the guard railing, I rolled a few dollar bills in my hand and walked out. While seeing me come out with both of my hands too full of groceries and stuff, he saw my gesture to take the dollars out of my hand. As he stood up with his paper cup toward me, taking the dollars, his eyes were so wide and full of joy that he made me feel like I just gave him a kingdom! He lit up so big while he thanked me and said, “Bless you,” and I repeated his joyful words back to him. After I passed him and was crossing the street I realized he looked familiar. It was the same homeless man who yelled out “Rocky” just a couple of weeks ago when I was running past him at the same spot. He made me smile back then and I made him smile today. Perhaps this is a small example of karma? As I walked away carrying my stuffed bags full of groceries, I felt more than grateful. I felt truly abundant.